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The First Night (Part 2)

I was so close to giving up on breastfeeding. In fact, when the nurse came in to check my vitals, Hayden was asleep in my arms and I was about to ask her to bring in a bottle with formula.

All of a sudden she said, “They’re all talking about you out there.”

I thought, oh great they are talking about how I am just another teen mom and they are all judging me. “Oh really?” I asked.

“Ya they are talking about how committed you are to breast feeding and how well you’re doing and you’re not giving up,” she said in an encouraging voice.

That’s it. That’s all I needed to hear. I wanted to prove that I could keep breastfeeding and not give up. And I did. I continued through the pain and it got better in time.

During the night Zach told the nurse to take Hayden to the nursery so I could get some sleep. I remember getting mad at him because I didn’t want her to leave but I fell asleep right away and they came back with Hayden in about a half hour because she was hungry again.

But we made it through the first night!

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The next day we had our family come to visit us and within an hour of Zach’s family coming down and hanging out, I was exhausted. I was able to sleep off and on that day with Zach’s help and we took turns sleeping and holding Hayden. The nurses were so helpful and I asked them any question I could think of. I was relieved when I found out we were staying another night because I was scared to go home without the help of the nurses. On that second day, we met Hayden’s pediatrician and they focused on my recovery.

The second night was a lot better. There was no cluster feedings and we actually got to sleep a little more.

The next morning, I finally got to shower and it felt so nice to be able to shower and walk around a little. Then my doctor came and discharged me.